Cruel Perception Of A Digital Depression

There is so much to this piece I don't know where to start or end...In my mind this is a subconscious representation of freedom and damnation between two people's visions. Me and my partner of 16 years... yes 16 years and even after that amount of time there is a disconnect between souls and vision. The video footage is her, she appears to me as "the lady in the red dress" like the film The Matrix, almost like a mirage, too good to be true at times. However her personal vision is very different to mine, she see beaches, freedom and doorways to a better life. I don't see freedom only free domination and damnation, a realm of false walls, distractions and traps. I feel bound to a digital life because I can't see things her way. I can't save her and she can't save me. I'm bound to a chess game, a floor of past monarchs hallways in a subconscious state between a digital life and physical life, it's both depressing and purposeful. I can't let her go but I can't keep here this side of the doorway waiting. Regardless of this being truth in my minds perception or hers the mere manifestation makes it real and that is why I'm bound to this false reality. The piece is chopped video clips of me and my partner, the world and digital paint/vector elements. An in-between in our time. This is a personal aspect of my depression I cannot deny, the effect on others is real. MP4 3540 x 2000