the days bleed yellow

journal 106 - “to the sunflower that lacks the strength to tend to a forest, look up, close your petals and detach your root. become one with the sky and jump…..” though i feel really bad in this, i don’t feel strong at all. as if i’m grasping for straws, while my neck feels to light to support my headaches. i’m afraid to try to look up but i need to jump….