GRENZALLEE

Grenzallee is a work of art that deals with the subject of mental health. A topic that has occupied me for years and is often a constant struggle for me. Dreams, goals, but also the constant everyday life are thoughts that routinely run their route like a train. But even these thoughts can derail despite all routine and fall into total chaos. This constant struggle can become unbalanced at certain stations in life, and when silence sets in during the night or even during the day, the fabric of control breaks down. A sense of falling and loss of consciousness sets in, and voices predicting failure echo through the mind like an announcement on a train track. Reality becomes distorted into the absurd, and the multitude of voices and thoughts sweeps control down the river of consciousness into the abyss. And as suddenly as this chaos has gained control, it disappears in utter exhaustion, finally giving way to sleep. Often this struggle reverberates for several more days, affecting daily behavior more than one would like. Like shadows on a sunny day, this chaos clings to every single step of yours. Who am I, what if I never achieve my goals, am I just a farce, what the heck is happening, is it even worth the struggle? These inner cries may fade away with time, but in dark corners they are just waiting to be released again and break through the silence like an avalanche. In all these negative feelings and pain, however, there is also the motivation not to give up. Success over one of these voices, if you manage to refute it, silences it forever and provides mental balance. At least for a while. Every milestone in life, no matter how small, is a building block of the mental foundation. "So I move on the border between silence and absolute chaos, hoping that one day I will be able to banish all voices."