You see this? It's not just math or paint on canvas. It's more like a private joke between two people, one of whom isn't here anymore. The yellowโthat's her laughter, bright and clear, cutting through the worst of days like sunlight through a dirty window. Itโs the kind of color that refused to let you frown, the way she never did.
The black squares and rectangles, those are the days without her, the voids where her voice ought to be. Each one's a different size because that's how loss worksโit's never the same two days in a row. Sometimes it's a tiny spot on the horizon, sometimes it's a whole damn night sky.
And the roses, those are for the romance that never did die, even if she did. They're black because, well, that's grief for you. It takes the most vibrant, living thing and makes a silhouette out of it. But they're still roses because love doesn't stop when someone's gone; it just changes color.
Is there a reason we're keeping time? Maybe, but it's there to remind you that time doesn't care about any of this. It's the most indifferent thing there is. The hands are frozen because for me, time stopped the day she left.
What do I want you to feel? Hell, I don't know. Sad, maybe, but not just that. I want you to see the love and the laughter there too. I want you to understand that this isn't just mourning. It's a celebration, a eulogy, an elementary composition of what was and what still is, in my head. It's the memory of her, and it's as close as I can get to having a conversation with her again. So take a look, and feel whatever you feel. That's what she would have wanted.
otoalchemist
