time disintegration

watching this cold take over me i feel like i'm disintegrating at once with these infinite molecules of time i wish i could laugh again, cry, feel desolate and nostalgic it's a melancholy drenching me in its waves i'm a lost frequency nowhere to be found this universe is so vast and yet here i am half a dot waiting to find the missing half i'm a pierrot waiting for columbine to unbreak his heart but how can you turn back to what once was without disintegrating yourself and all that's left from your aching heart and shattered dreams