Imposter syndrome...

Struggling with Imposter syndrome is the closest that I've come to see a monster. For me, it's the dread of not knowing, which then leads to self-doubt and the inability to exist as my true self. It's the feeling like I have to put on a new mask every day, but the mask isn't actually hiding anything. It's the monster in my head manifesting and controlling me like a puppet. My failure to overcome this monster and continuously being taken over until I finally decide... This is it.