Will Never be Alright

Just lost my head for all those problems can't stand this pain anymore, can't create anything that I like, can't be surrounded by people that constantly want to harm me.. My head its been a mess all those emotions been making me struggle in the creative process and even in the real life, can’t stand more of this, sometimes I just think “What if I die today, would I be satisfied?” And this just scares me so much, cause im not satisfied with anything, with my life or even with my creative career, im just so sad about everything, loosing someone you had during 4 years can truly break your heart and destroy everything you have inside yourself I don’t know if I still have strength to keep going, just lost something that never can be replaced and it hurts me seeing how much damage I have caused. Things not easy always heard about it but never though would be this hard. Sorry for everyone that follows me and appreciate my art, but all of this is just messing so much with my head, making me weak everyday, and art its been the only thing that let me share my emotions without getting hated or insulted, once again sorry for not being always active but there’s days that all I want its hide myself. Promise all of this will be gone but for now this is my last statement till the next creation, let me express more of this pain that as we artist go through.