How Could You Leave

Took 242 days for you to realize your value with this collection but I was always with you for nearly 17 years I know that I never made you feel right or in the right place but It was me who made who you are today, I made you stronger and I know I... Made you feel fucked up too many times, made mistakes but I was so young how could I know what was the best? Was discovering things in the same way and time you were, everything was so new but that genuinely doesn't matter to you because all you see is that I damaged you, and that's ok in some way you're right, broke your heart too many times for now wanting you to understand that all I made was probably for your benefit, made you cry nights over and over for things that now actually don't matter... But let me tell you one thing, all that made you stay home, develop skills that you probs would never get without me, you started making art, you made friends and you improved so much that brought you here...and I know that doesn't compensate anything I made you feel, every time you wanted to hurt yourself or even when all you wanted was to give up but... was never my intention to make you feel that way, all I wanted was to make you stronger for what is coming...because after all when you wanted to give up I never let that happen I always made you stick with me, I'm just glad that you doing better without me. This will be the last letter from me since you decided to leave but I hope you know that I'm proud of you and you should keep trusting yourself more, wherever you go I will always follow you, detached from you by choice but present somehow...