Walked Through Hell

The Journey started a long time ago, and I can't lie that I didn't have great times but till I had that peace inside me I had to suffer things that I want to prevent any of you to deal with... I have so many secrets buried inside me, some of them because of people that in the start looked so innocent and in the end, they were just here to hurt me one more time making me believe that I was the mistake. It feels like I can't breathe and I'm trapped inside my own body... Constantly walking among my biggest fears and worst feelings and I don't want anybody to deal with anything related to it because it's not fair that some can have joy and happiness in their lives while others are constantly being hurt, but most of the good emotions are just a camouflage for the sadness and anger because at the end we are all condemned to it... Sometimes we need a hard phase to make us react in the best way possible, however, suffering isn't something that people should have during their period of life because it goes so fast and people tend to use the worst emotions to build and keep their life, and none of them are strong enough to deal with all that... People say that god only gives people what they can't truly handle but why are people starving, why there's terrorism, why there's depression and diseases?? People can't handle all that without suffering so at this point I no longer cant believe in anything besides myself