Absurdism

When I really take the time to absorb the full extent of existing as a self aware, mortal human being, on a planet that’s hurling through space, I find that there is something so seemingly absurd about it all. It seems like our self awareness of our inevitable mortality is what makes each movement feel so special. And while on this journey of self discovery throughout our lives, we slowly became aware of the fact that everything we consume used to be alive at some point. It can feel so painful to contemplate that my mere existence requires perishing of flora and fauna for my own survival. In my journey of becoming a compassionate and a kind human being, that fact of needing to consume other living matter feels like an intense contradiction. If I really absorb it all, there is an element of it that feels very bleak, strange and just outright absurd. In philosophy, "the Absurd" refers to the conflict between the human tendency to seek inherent value and meaning in life, and the human inability to find any clear meaning in a chaotic and irrational universe. I often come to the conclusion that life’s meaning is whatever meaning I choose to give it, in this chaotic and irrational universe. • Absurdism. Acrylic & Digital. 6 x 8 in.